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| To remind you of what you were missing... |
A Strange Sense of Misplacement
And so my way of greeting you all again after a long period of neglect is to vent my inner thinkings in your direction. *waves arms in a waft-y fashion* Lemme tell you now, I'm listen to emotive music so please excuse my overly flamboyant or pompous remarks... it's that typical - 'I'm listening to music. Therefore I am deep. And I have emotional baggage. Look at the deep thoughtful me. Aren't I cool?' Situation.
Ever felt like you got shoved in the wrong puzzle box and there's only one space left, but you don't quite fit? Me neither, but it's as good of an analogy as you'll be getting because I don't know what the feck I'm on about.and it's the closest I can get.
Me, As I Am
I'm in a great place in my life - no doubt about it. I have my whole life ahead of me, important decisions to make and so many exciting things are going on around me. But, what I feel right now is the most important contributing factor to my current state - is my... unbelievable friends. (To put it lightly). I would not be stable without them.
But that's just the point. I don't deserve them.
What have I ever done in my life that I should have friends like the ones I have. And because of this selfishness in me, I sometimes feel like I'm slipping away or not even quite there to begin with.
Ultimately, what I need want? I'm not sure. I mean I'm still looking for someone but being 16 and saying that sounds ridiculous. But these days, in my opinion, media and society almost expect your life to revolve around the relationship aspect; and so, of course, that's exactly what happens. I'm sure there are a staggering amounts of 16-year-old girls who are exactly the same as me - worrying about a relationship- simply because it is shoved in our faces 24/7. (Selfish, Whiny Alert: If prone to annoyance easily please skip to next paragraph) See, whilst other people may get they're kicks off going out for wild nights out, nerdy me doesn't really enjoy that thing so much. I just want to feel like I'm important to someone and that they want to spend spare time with me. Albeit playing video games but still I digress. I think I wouldn't feel this way if there wasn't so much pressure to have your life sorted and planned already.
In conclusion - Media Sucks (who knew, right?!) , I don't know why I'm feeling so out of place and I can write a lot of what you guys will probably call bollocks but hey, I said I'd vent.
You Deserve a Medal!
If you got through that.. wow... I mean... I'd have just stared at my computer with disdain if I'd been reading myself so you're a pretty cool dude (gals included there).
Sorry that today wasn't book related but as I say, book reviews require some super heavy thought power and I've got all engines flaring for GCSEs which are proving horrendous because I can't remember anything let alone apply it.
So yeah... Thanks I guess... You're awesome... Stay Awesome.
(As you can see I'm totally well under way with that catchphrase... Awh Yeah...)
